Thursday, August 23, 2012

Happiness

most of us feel that it would be great if we became children again since all they have to think about is playing and food since we as grownups have so many responsibilities. Life has happened to me also and I am also getting wise every day (or so they say). As.such when we can anticipate what is there in future and that death is the ultimate truth one starts to ask oneself why were we actually born, what is our purpose in life?

this post is not about the answer to that question.rather its about happiness because we can often fail to find the answer to this question and become disheartened or loose faith, patience or hope (no I'm not referring to girls). As such knowing things that keep us happy helps in the journey called life.

So I have decided to do 3 things everyday that will make me happy. It makes me do good things, nice gestures and makes me a better person everyday. more so, it makes me happy. 

Makes me wonder will I be able to keep up this activity everyday. How many things will there be if I do three of them daily! Will doing somethings daily make me happy! Can people in my life affect these activities. Atleast I will know what makes me happy.  :-)

Monday, August 30, 2010

SOME THINGS ARE MEANT TO BE.......




Life is so strange. Sometimes you have nothing to do. You waste your time half the time complaining about how your life is boring and not happening and nobody cares for me and blah blah............

And sometimes it gets so demanding that you just wish you had extra hours in a day to give your time to yourself atleast. I was caught, I still am but at a slower pace, in one such scenario and it happened again to me.

It was one of those days when suddenly u loose sleep and loose appetite coz the work load is just too much. You hardly get the time to see yourself in the mirror but never fail to miss that pimple on your face constantly reminding you that this is those times. My semester is nearing an end and as is the case all the case studies and assignments are somehow scheduled at this time. To make things worse there are extra classes upto 8:30pm in the evening. You need to juggle your priorities. During one such day when I allowed myself some free time I came across a post that said Piyush is coming to Mumbai on his wall on facebook. After that it just slipped my mind.

My work demanded more from me and all I could think was what did I used to do earlier. It then dawned on me that I used to watch CHAK DHOOM DHOOM.........PIYUSH.............is he in Mumbai? I arbitarily dialed his Mumbai number that a girl had given me when she saw I was such a huge fan. It rang. I disconnected hardly believing it to be true. I started thinking what to say! How to react! Would he remember me! I dialed once again. It was his father. He said Piyush was in the bathroom. And yes he remembered the girl from the airport. i asked him where they were staying and he said Jogeshwari. I asked him when they would return back and he said the next day on the early morning flight.I thanked him and said I would call later. When I got off the phone I was not ready for a second time meet at the airport. Thing is the airport is very near (comparatively) to my place than Jogeshwari. I wanted to sit and have a chat with him. Meeting for 2 minutes wouldnt do. I considered going to Jogeshwari. But my team mates called to discuss the case study with them which was due the next day in the morning. another reason why I couldnt go to the airport.

At about 3pm I again called at that number and guess who received it? I asked Piyush if he remembered me. He did. I asked him what were his plans for the day. He said he would meet Bosco and Caesar sirs and also had to go to dinner with Swasti's dad. And then he said that they were going to the colours office at andheri east. I couldnt believe my luck. I googled the office address and informed them that i was on the way. on my way i picked up two chocolates, may favorite, for Piyush, Fruit n nuts and almond cadbury's......And like the last time........he was again there!!!!!!!!!! He was smiling, just like before........

I talked to uncle if we could go to Pizza hut but he said they had to go in an hour to Ceasar sir's home. He suggested we go some place near by and spend some time. I was glad to go any place as long as I was with Piyush :)

As we were walking Piyush showed me his wrist. He was wearing the I love India band that I had given him the last time. He said he wears it, he likes it. Then I asked if he wears the "danger" locket wala black chain. He said yes I wear it when I get angry. Then he started speaking about the shooting and how the same camera man was there in Comedy ka daily soap and boogie woogie and also on CDD. He said the camera man told him, arey tu yahan bhi aa gaya! hehehe....

Then we went to the restaurant and ordered some cold drinks. Piyush said koi bhi kala wala. He ordered Coke. It wasnt there so he took Pepsi.Uncle said he always wants to have Pizza, day n nite. And that he always drinks a lot of cold drinks........we both giggled.

Then Piyush toyed with his drink n I said if you put some salt into it ,it will ooze out. he did n his drink oozed n we laughed. I asked his dad to take a snap. He said the light is reflecting so we took another. Piyush started listening to songs n told me what was his favorite song in Step up 2. i said i wanted to watch step up 3d with him n he said yah he also wanted to watch it. He said he would like to go to essel world, with me he said yes, but there was no time. I said next time we will go n he said yes.

on our way back Piyush was trying to sing his favorite song but it is a rap song so it was difficult. He showed me his one dance composition of a wave where it starts with his hands n then his tongue in his mouth n then the wave ends in his other hand.I so much wanted him to show me a dance but this much was also too much to ask for.......

And if some one ever said a word about attitude and all about Piyush........then this is for them..........Do you know that coz they had to go to Caesar sir's house they decided to take their auto from where I took my bus so as to see me off just like gentlemen?! It was during this time that when I was putting my camera back in my purse , my wallet fell down n Piyush said we have the same wallet. He took out his wallet and showed me. I was so happy just then. I said wow we are children lost in kumbh ka mela......... bhaiya............n he was like u gav this to me last time.......he opend it n showed me his school i card........I just looked at him n i became sure this is a star here who will hav a huge fan following..........

When i got onto the bus he called me n waived back at me..........although his dad was there i just kept waving back to him n forgot that someone else was also there...........


I hope i hav done justice to that moment of my life and expressed myself and all the events....


Once again this post is dedicated to all the fans of Piyush who wait for him just to say a hello on the fb chat..........dont loose hope.......he is just a kid.....love him for that and appreciate him for being just a kid........u wouldnt want him to loose his childhood so soon............will u?

Friday, July 30, 2010

i cant hear it but ....Music is in my soul.......urs too

Why does music touch your heart as it does? If actions speak louder than words, music touches your soul......

What is more important in a song? music or the lyrics? For me the music inlfuences my decision coz it gives tone to the words........i know ppl who advocate the lyrics will say that the words speak for themselves and they dont need music. what i am saying then is that the music adds more to it.......they reiterate the effect that the words want to.......

When i am very low n i dont have words i take the refuge of music....also when i am very happy i walk into its arms........they seem to know exactly how i feel.........

And when i am alone and i am discovering myself i listen to music n i feel i am united with the universe...........

In this world at this time when we know that the powerful n rich win, when corruption prevails and being smart is the need of the hour and honesty is bookish ............when i come across people who are kind, who are honest, who are humble....one has to think if we are making haste in concluding that the world is going to end.....

When a musician writes his music what must be in his heart......where his soul might have travelled, what lengths his thoughts may have traversed, how deep he must feel, what hopes he may have?

If I am feeling low the rain drops elate me, they take me to another level where not even a close friend can go. only someone who has touched my soul will ever know how i feel then. when i am at the beach n i hear the waves i want my feelings to spill over just like they do but at the same time i want to protect them.

I never stick to the same music. people ask me what is your favorite. i dont have any because i want new waves to touch my soul and give me experiences i havnt had before. because in the end all wont be there with us...the soul will hav experience that it will carry further n enlighten another person again to continue the circle. also one can know the frequency of a person from his piece of music and may expect new things but there wil always be an element common to all of them...

i want music when i am angry, when i am sad n when i am happy or depressed. y? yet i stay away from it. i am not avid listener nor do i sing but when i allow myself to absorb the music i can only express it with words like i am doing it right now. i so much hope that i could answer back with my music but alas i dont know how to play any instrument. my most favorite instrument i would like to learn is the drums. n also i am affected by the piano, its very difficult to learn i know. i will have to try n see if thats what i wanna play or do i wanna listen. yes i believe that there are things we wanna play n things we'd rather listen.

i know at this age people have shifted to mettalic n rock but sometimes carnatic music also enraptures me. and ofcourse sufi music. oh there are so many choices....now a days there are many fusions. i appreciate them but id rather get the whole essence out of one music.....

many times i hav written a blog on music but i never seem to get the whole feeling out on this paper properly. i always go for yet another post on music. may be this will stop when i will speak music.

i am celebrating life, i am celebrating music